Twenty Four
I've been thinking about this song today:
In particular, these lyrics:
Anyway, I think this is all because we were created to see God work, and if we aren't seeing God work in tangible ways, then there is something crucial missing from our daily lives. And what we do (not just us, most people probably) is replace God's work with our own jobs, aspirations, marriage and even kids. I thought today that maybe we should have a kid! Neither of us really want that right now, so where did that thought come from? It was likely birthed out of discontentment, and a kid would be something more meaningful to do every day.
I don't mean to demean my marriage by this at all either. Katie and I are way in love. But the fact that both of us don't want to wake up every morning is evidence, I think, that we are experiencing discontentment in this area of our lives. And I'm a morning person too...
I know if I were a part of what God is doing at my job, every day and in new ways all the time, things would be different. The same is true for Katie. So I'm praying that God does something today to make this happen. I need to see some fruit at work, because otherwise, what am I doing here?
In particular, these lyrics:
I want to see miracles, see the world changeIt's been tough for Katie and me to get out of bed lately, and I think the reason is because our days lack something spectacular to look forward to. It's not that we don't have good things -- we have an awesome and new marriage, tons of friends, creative projects to work on, good jobs and The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess to beat -- but it's still not enough to make us excited to wake up (I know, that game came out 5 years ago, but I am always two steps behind in video games).
Wrestled the Angel, for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And You're raising the dead in me
Anyway, I think this is all because we were created to see God work, and if we aren't seeing God work in tangible ways, then there is something crucial missing from our daily lives. And what we do (not just us, most people probably) is replace God's work with our own jobs, aspirations, marriage and even kids. I thought today that maybe we should have a kid! Neither of us really want that right now, so where did that thought come from? It was likely birthed out of discontentment, and a kid would be something more meaningful to do every day.
I don't mean to demean my marriage by this at all either. Katie and I are way in love. But the fact that both of us don't want to wake up every morning is evidence, I think, that we are experiencing discontentment in this area of our lives. And I'm a morning person too...
I know if I were a part of what God is doing at my job, every day and in new ways all the time, things would be different. The same is true for Katie. So I'm praying that God does something today to make this happen. I need to see some fruit at work, because otherwise, what am I doing here?
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.
- Jesus (John 10:10)